Before I was A Mom

Before I was a mom

I made and ate hot meals.I had unstained clothing.

I had quiet conversations on the phone.

Before I was a mom.

I slept as late as I wanted

And never worried about how late I got into bed.

I brushed my hair and teeth everyday.

Before I was a mom

I cleaned my house each day .

I never tripped over toys or forgot words

of lullabies.

Before I was a mom

I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.

I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a mom

I had never been puked on,

pooped on

spit on

chewed on

peed on

or pinched by tiny fingers

Before I was a mom

I had complete control of:

My thoughts

My body

And my mind

I slept all night

Before I was a mom

I never held down a screaming child so that the doctors could do tests or give shots

.I never looked into teary eyes and cried.

I never got gloriously happy about a simple grin.

I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a mom I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put it down.

I never felt my heart break into a million pieces.

When I couldn't stop the hurt.

I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.

I never knew I would love being a mom.

Before I was a mom

I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every ten minutes to make sure all was okay.

I had never known the warmth

The joy, The love

The heartache

The wonder

Or the satisfaction of being a mom.

I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much before I was a mom.